Baby: I love you. I am sorry for getting mad over dumb shit. Even if I have been working on it. It's no excuse. I hope you can forgive me for all this drama I have laid onto this house. I am sorry for everything I have done, said or typed in instant messages, emails and text messages. I am sorry for it all. It's because of me things have been so shaky. I am sorry, baby. I love you.
Mom: I am sorry for what ever pain I caused you when I lived with you. You are the reason I am on this earth to begin with. I should be and I am forever grateful for everything you have done for me in my life. Always taking me in if I needed it. Being there for me in sickness and health. Looking out for me when I was growing up. And after all that, I treated you like shit. I have turned out to be like my real father - I am so sorry momma. I love you very much.
Dad: Dad, I am sorry I gave you a hard time while I was growing up. I know you meant well every time you yelled at me, or said no to me. Even if I didn't? Like it, I knew you just wanted the best for me. You have been more of a father to me than anyone else in the world - and you will forever be my Dad.
Mom and Dad: I love you two very much. You two mean the fucking world to me.
My sister: I love you nanna - your the best sister a bro could ever have.
Samantha: I wish to see you again.
Jimmy and Charlotte: You two are great kids. Love you!
Ruth, Carl & Family: I am sorry if I ever did anyone any wrong at any time in my life or made it rough on anyone if they were babysitting me (Ruth). Ruth you are my Godmother, and as much as I think your a hard-nosed bitch (LOL) you have meant a lot to me. And have done a lot for me as well during my life. Thank you, and I love you too Aunt Ruth.
Kelly: Even though you're Kris's sister, I have jokingly called you a bitch, cunt, or even deep throat. Even though you hated it. And for that, I am sorry and I hope that you, your husband and your child grow happily together. Thank you for being a friend.
Crystal and Steve: Steve, even though I have looked down on you for a while, I am sorry. Your not such a bad guy, really. Just think you could do better for yourself. Crystal, keep up the good work girl. And good luck with your 3 sons.
Gary and Susan: I used to think you two were the meanest people in the world for the way you raised Crystal, however I now realize that you two were just doing what you thought was best. I apologize if I ever thought wrongly of either of you.
Shayla, Jenna, Jeremiah and Josh: Personally I used to think all of you were complete pricks, morons and jackasses. I did not know you well enough, and for that I am sorry and hope you can find it in your hearts to forgive me.
Andrea - My first love: I am sorry for treating you like dirt back in Middle School - I was so young, dumb and ignorant. I hope you can forgive me for breaking your heart.
Everyone I ever dated: I am sorry for everything that happened. Please forgive me.
Cousins: If I ever said anything, or did anything to make any of you mad at me, I am sorry. Please forgive me.
Everyone in my Dad's family: If I ever acted up at Thanksgiving or Christmas and made a scene, growing up, I am sorry for that. I love you all like your my blood. Please forgive me.
Teachers: If there are any teachers out there, I pissed off or hurt - I am sorry, please forgive me.
Gabby: I am sorry for moving in with you and your momma, and then having to leave a month later. I am so sorry that you got attached to me, and I broke both you're hearts. Please, if you ever remember me, please try to forgive me.
Zachary: Things did not work out with me and your mom, you are too young to ever be able to remember me. We grew attached to each other, I am sorry Zachary. I am sorry and please forgive me.
Heather: I am sorry for damaging your car and never paying you back. Please forgive me. I am sorry.
Brandon: I am sorry for helping the other boys beat you up on school grounds in Middle School. I am sorry for kicking you between the legs and hurting you. I am sorry man, your a good guy and I should have never done that. Please forgive me.
Mister Lee: Mr. Lee, you are a damn good teacher. And behind your back, for the few years you were at the High School I would laugh and joke with friends about how you were a supposed fag and how you liked to suck cock and take it in the asshole. And for that, I must admit that I judged you based on sexual orientation and for that, I apologize. Please forgive me, Mr. Lee.
Justin: Just like Mr. Lee I did not like you because of your sexual orientation and passed horrible judgement in regards to your character and personality. Aside from all of that your a good person and I had no right to say the things I said. I am sorry Justin, please forgive me.
Derek: Hope we can hang out again sometime. I hope you and Lindsay are doing well with the Sayla, your baby girl.
Laura: Your a pretty cool chick, always cool to hang out with. Even though I thought you were a little nuts. But that is okay, I guess. Sorry if I ever misjudged you. Please, forgive me.
Anon: Sorry if I misjudged your personality as well. Please forgive me.
Adam: I am sorry if I thought wrongly of you. In reality your a pretty cool dude, I guess I just did not take the time to try and get to know you better. I am sorry man. Please forgive me.
Brian and Corey: I am sorry but I must tell the truth. Brian, I thought you had bad teeth and breath and were slightly on the funny looking side even though were good friends. And Corey, that goes for you too. I am sorry guys, for ever thinking wrongly of either of you. Please forgive me, and I am sorry.
To Myself: I am sorry for cutting myself, taking pills, and trying to hurt myself mentally and emotionally throughout my life. I am sorry for hating how I look, but I can not help it. I need to look better and get healthy so I can live a healthy life. I want to be able to forgive myself, and move on. But I do not think that I can.
Isaiah: Your a good kid, even if I think your annoying at times. Your still my nephew and I love you. I am sorry for how mean I am to you.
Jim: Your a good brother in law, but I think you're just another know-it-all who's done it all. But aside from all that, your a hell of a man. And a great father and husband to my sister.
Uncle Benny: Just wanted to let you know uncle Ben, that I do think your a prick - but you are my uncle and I love you.
Uncle Vernon and uncle Jim: you two are just awesome, even if think you two are wild, crazy, rednecks. Love you.
Michael Roy Connell: Just a note, Mike, don't you ever think of coming near me, around me, or come looking for me - which includes any and all of my friends or family. You will not leave in one piece. I want your head you fucking sadistic pedophile-motherfucking bastard. You fuckin child raping pig fucker! If I had it my way, the last thing you will ever see is me over the top of you choking the life out of you.
My baby's kid's: I am sorry for everything, I have done. I honestly cannot think of where to start on that. I just hope you guys will grow to forgive me at some point. And I also hope you all can see that I have been trying. I don't know what else to say.
God and Jesus: I am sorry for betraying you, my lord. I love you. Please forgive me, father. I beg you.
Irvin: I am sorry that after you died, me and Kris called you Ernie and laughed. I should not have done that. I was wrong for that. Please forgive me, man.
Roger: As my real father, I do love you. But I can honestly say "dad" that I do not love you nearly as much as I love Ted - my step dad. He has been more of a father figure to me since I was 4 years old, than you ever have been. Even though we have met, and talked on the phone and hugged and worked some stuff out - I just wanted you to know that for the longest time, I hated you and wanted to kick your fucking ass. And for those feelings - I should never have those feelings towards my father - and for that I ask you, God and Jesus to forgive me and remember that I am deeply sorry - but I am also grateful we have had a chance to sort things out. And thank you again, for that $1,000.00 you gave me. I really needed it.
Dead Friends and Family: I hope to see all of you again someday. Irvin, Grandpa Strickland, Grandma Strickland, Grandpa John, funny grandpa, cousin Tyann, I hope I get to see all of you again some day. And I want to apologize and ask forgiveness for anything I had ever done or said during my life while any of you were alive to make you upset at me, hate me, or dislike me. I am sorry. Please, forgive me.
There are many things I have done, and said to people throughout my life. Past girlfriends, family, and friends - and even people I did not even know - ranging from telling a stranger to fuck off in a chat room, or in a bar, or on the road in my car by flipping someone off and ruining their day. Anything I have ever done, or said, to anything or anyone, I am sorry. And I hope that Christy my mom's old cat she used to have will also forgive me for being mean to her. I love life, friends and my family. I love my school, and my relationship. I feel like a total jackass, a failure, a lazy bum, a loser, a prick, an asshole, and a fucking dickhead. Right now I feel as if I am useless, or helpless. I can not explain why I have managed to fuck up so much during my life. I am trying like hell to change all that! I JUST WANT EVERYONE TO BE HAPPY!!!! :(:(
PS: If I managed to forget anyone in this list, I sincerely apologize deeply from the bottom of my heart. I am very sorry for everything I have managed to do, say, fuck up, or harm - anything and any body. I hope I can be forgiven for all of it. And to each and every single person on the Internet I have ever managed to piss off, I am sorry to you as well and I hope that you can forgive me. Thank you.
TO ALL: I am sorry, I love you, and please forgive me!
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